Tuesday August 30th 2011 (Afternoon)

Things would go from amazing to crappy in seconds.

Started off great, amazing even. My brother and I were getting along and getting our school supplies together. Cute backpack and binders. Pencils, pens, markers, pencil crayons, math sets, paper. etc. 

Going great. Laughing having fun, an actually fun Tuesday.

Now. Fast forward about 2-3 hours.

I over hear my mom crying in her room. So I trying to be helpful go and knock at the door *the door to her room is always locked* and see if there was anything that I can do to help. Nope. Nothing. Apparently it's something I "wouldn't understand". Says the woman who's IQ level I passed in the 5th grade. 

But that's neither here nor there.

We get in a yelling match through the door about it not affecting me and me saying anything to do with my family will affect me. Blah blah blah. 30 mins later. We're both crying and she went mute. 

And here we are. Still recovering from a switch in spirits blasting my stereo with music. 

Oh you wanna know my happy music CD. there's a meaning behind every song. (:

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I'll put the link in there later. 

Right now things are a bit better. Sitting watching TV with my brother. I'll post a evening one later

xoxo

Kaila

Tuesday August 30th 2011 (morning)

Good morning,
Another morning of waking up at 6:30 am. Another day of well most likely nothing. Today it's raining and gloomy outside, so that means no big plans. Not like there was any to begin with.
Yesterday I was told by my ex best friend that the man I'm in love with was in town visiting, and apparently today's the day he's leaving. It shames me to say what I would give to just hear his voice again, to have his arms wrapped around me, feel his soft lips on mine; one last time.
But that's depressing news. My accomplishes of today were painting my nails, and watching TV. Super exciting right? No. Not really. its even like a really crappy color. It was supposed to be red, but it turned out some crappy brown. Have you ever been mislead on makeup before? It sucks.

Crappy ass brown

 But I have ONE week left before school. grade 11 and I have the following courses

A-AWQ3O 
B-MSIP (multi subject instructional period) - I'll talk about that later
C-SCH3U
LUNCH
D-ENG3U
E-MCR3U


For those who don't understand the Canadian subject code that is...

A-Photography 
B-MSIP 
C-Chemistry
LUNCH
D-English 
E-Math 


Anyway, MSIP is a period where you are forced to sit in a room with a bunch of other kids and do homework, or depending on your teacher, hang out and do nothing. Like a spare. But more structured.
I spent all last year having the best MSIP of my life. One MSIP with Evan and my close friend Jackie, another with just Evan and I. And this year, I have to get by without my other half. My Evan. Which you will here how that goes through the duration of the making of my blog.


Interesting fact of today, apparently mascara has bat poop in it? Ew.



So this year I plan on making lots of changes, to my life and myself. Whether I can keep them is another thing entirely. I guess this will be a morning post. I'll probably post again later. 
xoxo
Kaila

Reasoning why I started this blog.

So a little get to know me should be ensued. If anyone even reads this.
 I am Kaila.  I'm in high school; grade 11. And I, at this moment, 9:53pm August 29th 2011, Am inevitably in love with a boy, well, man. In college. So this will be my blog. on the life and times of a teenager. A Canadian teenager going through day to day struggles at school and at home. It will be like a personal diary, for others to relate to if they wish. Nothing here will be censored, I will tell you what its like, to be me, in grave detail. 
And well, if it gets me in trouble, so be it. If it helps me get better. great. but what I know is that I need to survive my way through life, and this is the best way I could think. I'm going to try and post every day. So look forward to the antics. I live a pretty, rollercoaster-y life. Some days are boring, others are eventful. 
You will just have to wait and see.
<3 For now. 
Kaila